A day with Jenny and Phoebe

Went out with Jenny and Phoebe today. Well, since Phoebe is leaving soon, so its better for us to hang out with her before she leaves to USA. So gonna miss her. Went to midvalley for lunch and dinner and also a movie (BRAVE).

my 21st...BLESSINGS...

There's so many things I can be thankful and grateful for....

Thanks to everyone for the wishes, gifts and arriving at my party....

SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!! =DD

Thank You GOD for friends... =)

Me, Myself and I... No one else..

Battle with Myself

Have you ever sat up at night,
And just let your barrier down?
Brick by brick.
I've sat in silence and cried..
Plenty of times.
I've let it defeat me,
Made me think I'm worthless,
I let the burden of my thoughts get to me.
Like safety pins and razors..

I regret it,
Now I've got the scars..
They remind me..
Of how the scarlet red trickled down my skin.
I regret the pleasure it gave me,
How I felt I needed it to happen.

I regret that I let my family and friends..
Down. Discover. Drown in pain.
All because..
I let the anxiety and wretchedness reach me.
I let it control me..
The pain, The pleasure.
It gave me peace.

Makes me cringe.

The thoughts I think.
Overtake me sometimes,
Sometimes..
I like to go back.
To the feelings,
To The way it was cold against my skin.

Sometimes..
I think I'm good enough to stop.
But something reminds me.
I'm not..
Just sometimes..
I'd like to end it all..
Only sometimes.

Broken Dreams.

Drowning in a darkness 
Of deep despair 
Believing the lies I hear 
And seeing truths not there 

See the rays of sunlight 
They shine upon your scars 
Reaching for that broken smile 
Among the hidden stars 

Hearing the tear drops 
Falling from your eyes 
Believe my hidden secrets 
And tell my stolen lies 

Bring me to the surface 
Give me air to breathe 
Let me see the sorrow 
Upon my broken dreams