Wishing / Praying

I wish and pray that for ALL the days of my life, may I always choose to do what is most honourable to God and all the dearly beloved around me. May I always demonstrate love; not just any kind of love, but a love similar and always learning to be more and more like the greatest Love ever exemplified. May faith and hope be ever reminding my heart that it is not alone and there is much more in store. And beneath all these, may HE be the one I pursue all the days of my life. Not my studies, nor my calling, or any other loves.

Teach me God, for there is still much to learn. 

Australia, I'm coming again...

Honestly I miss Australia and in a year or 2 time, am going to MIGRATE there. CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT...

WALTZING MATILDA

let go, let God

“Let go” does not mean being passive or inactive. It means trust.

John Ortberg - Love Beyond Reason

TEAM BRING IT!!!

The one that ROCKED the world...
The people's champ..
Leader of Team Bring It...
The Brahma Bull...
The ROCK....

Congrats on being the WWE Champion after 10 years...

Conflict

Should sleep because its late.

Don’t wanna sleep because I’m not sleepy (does being sick make you not sleepy?) and I’m afraid of annoying coughing fits when trying to sleep. Oh the horror of last night and those nights after it was over.......

NYEHGHHGGGG......

Move

I love the excitement and prospect of having more and more youths participating in community outreach events and mission trips. I am honoured and blessed to be part of a team who thinks, prays and loves the ministry enough to find the opportunities for them. To me, it’s because we know that it’s through these opportunities, that God will speak to them, and move them to see beyond themselves and the worship services we have every Sunday. They will see that it’s so easy to find Jesus in the corners of our society and world, and it is possible to reach out to these areas with the simple resources they have.

I know that when God speaks, lives will change. Faith will increase, and love will expand. I know this because this is what He has done for me, since I let Him. I’ve also seen how lives in church have already begun to change, when they gave themselves the chance to serve God this way. 

Haha and because of everything i’ve written above, I know that it is God who really is the one changing lives. Not me, but Him. He is the true leader and boss; I am merely His humble servant.

Thus Far

Lets just continue seeking God shall we 
=)

I'm really so thankful that God has truly blessed me with dear friends to keep me going strong in my faithwalk.... I really do... 

As this week comes to a close, i look back... Slacking, sharing, devotions, (many) tears, joy, laughter, travelling around KL... 
I learnt a lot through all that, lessons that cannot be learnt during the first two phases... 

Exciting! Whats up next, Lord? 

Moving on

I FEEL LIKE I'M MOVING HOUSE OR SOMETHING NOW.

AHJDKHAASHDKHE;AJKSDKA

WITHOUT FORE WARNING TOO!


NEVERMIND THE END RESULT

WHICH I HOPE COMES TODAY WILL

BE VERY WORTH IT..I HOPE!

More later.

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory....

Thoughts

Want to know who you are, and what you can do?

Get to know your Maker first. 


Afterall, He made you. So shouldn't He know you best? (:

Love that never fails

You know we always say God is faithful. But it takes a huge amount of confidence in yourself, and understanding the seriousness and power of that sentence. Cause why would God, the creator of the heavens and the earth, the one who is so beautifully mysterious, whom even the devils acknowledge as GOD would actually want to be FAITHFUL to YOU?? A nobody if not for His grace??

It is love.... Love is the only answer to all these immense questions.

Perfect Love

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness & patience. Bear with each other & forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them altogether in perfect unity.Colossians  3:12-14

(I think I think alot when i shower. But by the time I try to write or type them down, I kinda forget.. lol)

OKAYYYYY...so... technically I don't really see how that verse is related to the next chunk of words. LOL.... just something I saw while watching tv just now...

Anyhow!

God is perfect. He is the perfect God. Sinless, the exact opposite of good. indescribable, more wonderful than anything else of this world or universe. Doesn't this mean that He shouldn't be able to accept anything less than perfect?? Everything in His eyes should be perfect. Like how He made this world, it was "good". Until sin came, that is... Now that's the problem... Admit that we're not perfect, not at all. Then how can He still love us so much as claimed in the Bible??

He had to put something perfect in us, so that He can accept us. that something perfect, is Jesus, His very own son. And the only way to put that in us is for Him to die for our sins, when we were the ones who really deserved to die...

Try thinking about it... For God to actually send down His son to die for us, JUST SO that we can be accepted into His holy kingdom, He must be pretty desperate eh. And i guess that's love. He loves us enough to do so. Perfect Love is sacrificial love...

I'm glad I have this God =)

Okay sorry.. that was my train of thought while showering today.. =D lalalala..

Forgiveness is having a heart of love

Things happened today...
That left me wondering...
I'm glad for God, really am... =)

Today's timing was so perfect, I'm pretttty amazed myself!!!!

Yea, so i guess its resentment... but you know what? forget it... I won't bother anymore... It doesn't matter, i know what happened between us, that's all. And I know i'm going to work alot harder for my coming semester...

To be honest, last week & the few weeks before that were really shaky weeks. I never felt so spiritually & mentally shaky before. And that really scared me. Well I just figured its almost been a week since it ended and I'm glad I came through this week rather okay. I wasn't so drained, and this week has just been trying to pull myself back up again. Its not something that overnight. Behind that face, there's a person trying to get up again & pull himself together, being stronger in faith, and to just carry on with that hope and peace that God has given to us by grace...

Quite a few thank yous to go to my friends out there (you know who you are). You guys made my week and much better one =) with all the encouragements and all the crazy stuffs from each one of you lol...

Alright that's quite a bit of thoughts spilled out. I'm gonna sleep. Tired out..

childhood

This thought popped into my brain sometime this week (wanted to blog about it earlier but didn't)
Why do people hate children so much?? or at least, dislike them & would have nothing to do with them
like, weren't we all children once??
hmm....

I was reading "If You Could See Me Now" by Cecelia Ahern. She's one good writer with not too much vulgarities inside, which by the way is quite good since most books have like plenty of that. its quite a fascinating book. its almost pure nonsense anyway since its really quite fiction, but it does have quite a bit of good sense that leaves me quite liking the book XD I can't really remember what she said inside, but its about the difference between adults & kids. hmm... When i get that book again i'll put out the quote or something ... =)

Anyway that was what put that thought in my mind & here's what i figured:

Maybe, its because we never really had a childhood. Maybe we spent all our childhood days trying to grow up. Yearning to be a teenager & when we reach that stage we want to be even older so that parents don't have much control over us anymore. We keep wanting to grow up, we dismiss all the small little things that makes childhood. Back in our minds, we detest it. We want it to pass by as quickly as we can...

One thing that many people don't realize is that you're only a child once, you're an adult till you die. That really makes childhood deserve to be treasured compared to adulthood. And many people miss that out. Childhood can be one of the happiest times in your life, because there's innocence, there's treasuring every single tiny thing you have, there's simple joy, there's simple faith. And when people see kids having that, they call them childish.

Sometimes adults can be the childish ones. Just sometimes. XP

Some people dislike children, because they put away they're own childhood. I forgive them because they don't understand.

I understand childhood, its something i really want to hold on to as long as possible. And I do wish to make other people's childhood to be as loving, as joyful, as blessed as it can be. spiritually wise, being mature in your faith is having a childlike faith. Being not mature in your faith makes you have adultlike faith. Its kinda ironic, but I think it kinda makes sense right? haha....

Now thats a really long train of thought. I have a long train! ahahaa i think i'm getting lamer as the days go by...

Today was a happy and fruitful day =D

bye, off to read the book Joycelyn gave me 'Redeeming Love'

In everything, give thanks

Okay, so far the week has been bad.. yea.. THAT bad...
BUT, I'm really thanking God for that =)
As in, He may not have given me a fantastic monday to friday, but at least He gave me good moments

"remember Danker, in everything, GIVE THANKS" - Jean

hahaha yeah THANK YOU sister! heh you're one amazing girl you know!!! I'm really glad to know you, especially alot more last year!

I'm trying to make it a point to remember every tiny happy moment, every tiny detail that proves that God is so good.

As for the rest of my friends who were praying for me and cheering me up as well as getting me on track. I wanna say thank you. It's already a BLESSING to have friends like you. =)

Hang On..

It's been a pretty nice day of sorts, nicer than the last week or yesterday. It was filled with different thoughts, emotions, perspectives. May not be all positive, but that means it has been meaningful....

The last week has honestly been a tensed one. I wake up in the morning, feeling the desperate need to pray for an extra dosage of strength and faith. At the end of the day, I feel that same need again. This has been repeating for the last few days. And a couple of days back, someone close to me LEFT ME. Been crying until there's no more tears .As testing it might be, I really do feel, am starting to understand and actually appreciate that I am in a time where God is strengthening my faith and my hope in Him. To depend on Him on every moment of the day, because I know that I am not good enough to make it through this life with my capabilities alone. I never was, but I do know that in my weakness, that is where He is strong.....

So strong...

Every day, I hang on to the hope that He is here, and He is in perfect control. How do I do that? Partly faith. Also partly from the little joys I don't forget to see every day. The occasional breeze that lifts my spirit, the pretty flower I spy on my way home, the seat I get on the LRT when my shoulders are aching from my bag, the occasional texts from people who suddenly remind me that I am loved, the smiles and hellos I get from people I meet, the duckies at botanics who are growing up, the beautifully coloured sky....

The list can go on and on and on. And because of them, I know I am blessed... =)

I'm not sure when this period will end, but that's not for me to fret about. Till then, may my faith be undying...

You Just Don't Understand

Sorry but here's a sad sad post so if you don't want to see the 'arrrggggh' side of me today then u dun have to read....

You don't understand, do you?? Stop giving me mixed feelings. I wish I could say all these out but it would be really disrespectful. You try to tell me something, I give you a blank look. You think its funny, I think otherwise.... Its really hard you know, really really hard... =(  Why can't you see that time has changed things, changed people, changed everything?? Don't treat me like a primary school kid because i'm not... Its no use trying to catch up like that, there's no use.

I'm sorry =(

I guess it was a good talk during the CF activity today, I HOPE YOU UNDERSTOOD WHAT I WAS SAYING.. but yeah, head & body was aching..

What can i say?? nothing... I only can pray. When will you realize that this isn't doing any good to any of us?? (HEY IT RHYMES LOL)

You know at that very moment, all I wanted to do was to talk to you, give you a whole lot of things that has no importance to you but yet it does for me, hoping that you'll listen & give some hearty advice, cheer me up...

Sounds selfish, but that was what i really wanted for that moment.

Lord, I need to rest in you. I shall go sleep now. My head and body is already aching... I juz feel so bad right now..

Tomorrow will be a better day =).... I hope..

Even If

Even in such a world, with painful experiences never seeming to disappear from one's mind, its still possible to find pure joy and hope...

Finally gonna get to catch up with Jascinta today for dinner... =)

The End

I just don't know what to say.
Deeply deeply deeply sad.
It just ended like that.
Well, I wanted to end it but not like this.
You just left me hanging without knowing the real truth.
But its your life anyway.
Didn't you say 2013 is gonna be your year?

You're here

You're so perfect, I'm so broken,
here You come with arms wide open
Chasing after me down every road
You're always waiting there

Be still

Be still for the power of the Lord
Is moving in this place
He comes to cleanse and heal
To minister His grace
No work too hard for Him
In faith receive from Him
Be still for the power of the Lord
Is moving in this place..

Be still...
When we are still, the still small voice we always long to hear may not be that small after all...

This holidays is already gonna come to an end. I'm happy because I'm going to be starting college soon. Two more semesters and then I'm DONE. I'm determined to finish well!!! =) Yay yay.
Thank You Lord =D
 

Amazing

God is indeed amazing beyond amazing, how can I ever stop singing His praises!
Very productive day today, thank you all..
Thinking back, its really amazing (haha i keep using this word) on how we actually got to today. 2 years back I wouldn't have thought that He would bring us this far - 10years ago I never thought or even dreamed that I'll be serving in such a way. In fact, I never expected myself to experience such an intimate relationship with Christ a few years back, because I simply didn't know that it was very possible.

And its really so awesome (yes i am changing the word) how He cares so much till He sends down so much encouragement and people to lift me up. Emails seem to be the thing now, haha :)

On an extremely big side note,

I WANT FRESH FRUIT JUICE VERY VERY BADLY :( 

He is my all..

You know I'm quite glad I can say that I have my God. And that my God is above all...

Already 21 years okay, I didnt know that a real relationship with Him could happen. But somehow, He remembered me and brought me back to Him. Although I cannot say my walk with Him is perfect all the time, I can say that waking up everyday knowing that He is there, and He will carry us through is a delightful feeling. To know that someone up there so Almighty and powerful loves me so much its actually crazy by human expectations, to know that He has exciting things planned out, keeps me very much dancing in His love and asking "whats up next O Lord??"

He has proved so faithful, so VERY faithful. In all aspects...
That keeps me going. How I stay happy most of the time, its because I have His everlasting joy!!

And really, the only thing I can say is "my life is for you to use, for Your glory"
 

I think, He's taking that statement quite seriously :D
Its extremely overwhelming at times,
but I've found out, its exactly what I've been yearning for....

Can You Hear?

God is always speaking.
Through everything in life. The stillness, the noisy worship session, the people, the experiences. And much more.
Whether we caught it or not, highly depends on us.

Am still thinking of the glorious weekend hahha. About the worships I had on 3 consecutive nights. And at a very random point of life (this morning while i was brushing teeth), the thought of "Why only expect God to speak during booming worship? Isn't this the God who is most powerful and almighty?? He definitely can speak anytime, anywhere!!!"

Haha mhmmm, am glad that I can listen in whatever extreme volume my surroundings is. I love the stillness and the quiet because peace and love is so so evident then, and I love high power worship with others in Christ because it is when my heart is set free to REJOICE in one manner. 

He is always speaking to you and me. I am trying to hear Him all the time, and how about you??





Am excited, with God's love! :D

Think about this
If we really have been given the gift
of life that will never end
And if we have been filled with living
hope, we're gonna overflow
And if God's love is burning in our
hearts, we're gonna glow
There's just no way to keep it in !

Devotion

I've been running, trying to be one who sees
I've been working salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing
that we are redeemed
I'm believing, trusting in creative hands,
I am praying for our world to bow to your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable:
I take up my cross and follow you Lord...

When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees...

I'm forgiven; my Savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
I'm delivered, but it doesn't seem right
unless I keep my eyes focused on the savior who gave his life
In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up my cross and follow you Lord...

I will take up my cross and follow Lord where you lead me
And I will take up my cross and follow wherever you go..
 

Christ, my first love =) 
It is an honour, a blessing, a joy !

Beauty

Life is beautiful, when it belongs to God. Because God is beautiful. 
And then, nothing else matters anymore.


I wish for love, perfect love, to be continously overflowing in my heart and life.

The bits of 1 Corinthians

If I have faith that can move mountains, but not have love, I am NOTHING" - 13:2b

It (Love) always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." - 13:7

Now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love" - 13:13

I love You more than life

Fall back on everything You've done
Fall back on everlasting arms
When all the world is swept away
You are all the things I need
You're the air I breathe

I love You more than life
I love You more than life


ok... got to go out now... feel abit jet lag XD

If I can speak, let my words be full of His praise

And if I should live or die
Let me be found pursuing this prize
The One that alone satisfies
The Treasure of Jesus

- Treasures of Jesus by Steven Curtis Chapman

Life, and how I want to live it.

Life itself is a gift, and a gift must be used. If not, it would mean you’re not appreciating the giver of the gift. In this case, it wouldn’t be honouring God, for a gift from a King would be wasted...

So for me, I hope and want this life to be one that gives. Not just giving, but giving with all sincerity and joy. And with that, I want to love richly. My inspiration? Jesus. For He gave and loved with all that He had. Even if people didn’t appreciate it, even if it seems odd and out of the world, even if no one understood. So I want to do the same in my own special ways, not for any form of credit, but because that’s my way of bringing a little more of Jesus in this world....  

And so, if there is one thing you’ll want to remember of Kenneth, its Jesus. (with a smiley face) Nothing else can be more important than that....

=)
Live from Australia

Wheeee

It is a very strange moment when your mind is thinking of all the serious admin things you need to do and then suddenly it switches to kid mode and all you feel like doing is laughing, rolling around, poking someone and running around without a care in the world...

It’s happening now haha and I caught myself just in time to post it. Not that I’m running away from the serious stuff; in fact I love it. But I suppose there’s a part of me that loves to be free and laughy that will never be gone & it jumps back in at the randomnest times. And knowing my mind that can jump topic so fast.. It happens. HAAHAHHAHAA and now I’m just amused and a little shocked at how strange I am. (sometimes only)..

=)

ok its dinner time!!! I shall proceed to think about food.... AUSTRALIAN FOOD!!!