Numb of Numb

I’ve been in kinda of a daze the last couple of days. Caught myself staring into space too many times. Don’t really know what I’m doing. Had a good long talk with my friends last night and felt a bit better but more confused than ever. I would probably feel better after a good cry but heyyyyyyy~ even my tear glands are not cooperating. It’s been frustrating that I cannot express how I’m feeling inside. I feel like I need to throw myself against a wall or something but yeah who am I kidding I am so boring I’m just gonna lie in bed and type a whole load of shit like I’m doing now and hope things get better which is like never. Is this what they call being numb?